hokjesgeesten

Het hokje

een hokje daar hou ik niet van
ik kan niet leven in een hokje
ik ben die ik ben die die ik wil zijn
mijn geest is mijn
tracht niet mij te vertellen hoe ik moet leven
hoe ik mij moet gedragen
de hokjesgeesten in dit leven hebben mij veroordeeld
niet goed genoeg
niet binnen de lijntjes lopend
de hokjesgeesten in dit leven hebben getracht
geweldadig getracht met harde hand
mij te vormen naar hun ideeen hun levenswijze
ik kan echter niet leven in hun hokje
ik zing dans spring teveel
ik droom teveel
spinsel teveel
en juist aan dit alles zit een oordeel aan vast gepind
raar en niet goed genoeg
vriendelijk hallo naar elk roepend die voorbijgaat dat is te vreemd blijkbaar

Maar alle hokjesgeesten in dit leven, hokjesgeesten van vroeger en tegenwoordig ten spijt ik ben die ik ben en die ik blijf. Zingend onder de zon en in de regen en ja ik zal je altijd groeten kom ik je tegen.

life is.........

Life is ...................................................................
Life is :sometimes a smile
sometimes a tear
sometimes a good time
somtimes you don't wanne know stick your head in a pillow and be verry low
Sometimes like a breeze wonder how and why
Sometimes i am at eazzzzzzzzzzzzz even happy while i cry
Life is a never ending storry a constand surprise never lame and doll and i am completly and totaly crazy restlessly calmly wwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwhhhhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaaa letting day by day pass by and never getting any gripp because i never want to try
Life to me is a constand adventure so i celebrate life with all the ups and downs sadness happyness all feelings that i feel, feel deep and real, i wanna feel life intense all the moments off my life
i know it tooke some time for me to realize thats the only way i wanna embrace life be always surprised.

me and driving my car

I've got my drivers licence a short while ago and like everybody else i am saying beware off me i am a danger to my surronding hahaha. Well i dont know iff that is really the case but yes i am terible whit parking the car. No i diddent get anny bumps or that kind off things but i cant quite seem to get the hang off it. My hands get swetty my vision gets really kind of fuzzy and my breathings goes verry fast oh man why dont they have parking places with a little bit more space for people like me you know? Well annyway i like to drive it gives a sence off freedom to me it makes me dream to go to places i have neaver thought that i could go the world gets so much larger in my mind. Iff annyone ever would have sayd to me that one day i would get my divers licence i surly would have called them stire nuts, me and a divers licence no way. Well i did it, dont aske me how but i did. Surely everybody will understand how happy i am. Well like all other things in live (study, having a career etc. etc.) i am just some years slower then the rest but it duss'nt matter what matters is the fact that i did it at all that is important . Yes i am really proud off myself and parking the car? oke that is something i will learn to do also.

Also Eden

Wohw wunderfull, a while ago i attendet a progfarm- festival at Bakkeveen Friesland. The groups i heared where verry good. One group speccialy namely Also Eden. I think that they are live even better than on a cd. The sound is more lively and the voice has much more depth and inpact. There was also an mexican group i dont remeber there name but i remember the voice off the singer (sorry i dont know how to put it in correct words) clearly it sounded magnificent. I love voices voices that toutch your hart. I like Also Eden and the music they make a whole lot cause it is music that toutches my hart, it fills me with happyness or sadness and silence. Tjee that music can do that to me. I have a cd but i almost never play it cause in my memory they sound so much better. Well i can tell everyone it is really your worthwhile to go to Bakkeveen to a progfarm concert cause it is lotts off fun.

my beautifull Leiki

My Leiki is a beautifull dog sweat lovely verry naughty and sometimes her eares wont allow her to here the things wich i want her to hear. She see's al birds flying around and simply forgets that i'm there still waiting for her to listen to me when i call her name. When the bird is out off her sight she comes running to me with a, i can only say that it lookes like a smile on her face, like iff she never ever planned not to listen. To tell the truth she probbebly onestly didn't here me calling here cause she was so fixed on the bird. who could blame her live can be sweet aspecialy for a dog like Leiki. Leiki is a verry joifull, loud, liffely and crazy dog in fact the crazyast dog we ever had and believe me we had our shaire off dogs. To be honest i must ad that Leiki was the first dog that we got while she was still a pup. The other dogs we have had were about 2/9 years when we got them. Iff youll ask me iff that makes a different? No i diddnt make a difference to me i loved them just the same and i miss them just like i will mis my crazy Leiki when time will come. Leiki loves to bark at nothing play like a big fool with her toys and with my son. I still can hear my husband say that he wanted to pick out the pup so that we could have a normal dog for a change. Guess what, no all that Leiki is she issn't normal not in the least. she and that crazy cat Figash make live bareble for us. Next time i will tell some adventers that Figash the black cat and Leiki the crazy dog had.

i like to tell story's

No, i love to tell story's so the title is incorrect. Some story's are small and some are verry verry time consuming. Meaby i dont write the words correctly so i really beg your pardon. My enlish issent what it indispicceble oeps. Well duss'nt really matter to me as long as people understand what i am trying to say. Well if there is anybody out there who feels the need to correct my sentices i say go ahead and feel free. I never was a person who gives a ........... whenever i made mistakes during writing my story's. Whenever you get scared off making them you will never ever be able to make a good story at the best you'll only acomplish writing a verry bad unfinnishd story. Well just to let you all know i will always continue writing my story's wheter they are good or verry bad in writing or in telling them. i know i am making terrible mistakes while i am writing in English but i would like to see how you where doiing if you would be writing in another languace then you are used to. Well it is verry difficult for me to think and write in a foreign lanuace. ............. i just know i got that last word writen wrong well and so what? Okee now i handeld that well diddnt i? i can tell my brain is sometimes a really big mass. O Yeah, i was telling you all how much i'dd love to tell story's. I think i loved telling story's from when i was a little girl, i had a great deal of immaginagine and i was always making up story's for my friends. Somtimes it seemed to me that i was living in a bubble of story's. It wassent like i didnt know fantasie and truth apart from eachother but it was just more acciding to make up story's it made my live back then and taht also counts for now so much richer. I just hope that everybody likes to read the story's that i am goiing to tell and iff i may effend you by making mistakes in my spelling or write words the wrong way i beg your pardon. Well thats it now that is out the off the way i will continue telling my simple story's of live and other stuff.

Everyone can get scared bij looking at their own reflection

Looking at your inner self can cause pain iff you dont like yourself the way that you are. It can destroy the immage that you want the world to have when they look at you cause when you look at yourself and cant show the world what ever you want them to see it can be quit desturbing. I did, and whatever i saw it wasn't what i wanted to see i can tell you that much. Well, it really changed the way i was thinking about a lot off things and i realized that there where many things i wanted and needed to change or i just would drawn or would be stuck for the rest off my live. Come to think off it maybe it wassent such a bad idea to stop and take a good look in the mirror. Knowing that i wanted to make changes and doiing it are two different things